So...

Last week I had my Photography Graduation Show. It went rather well, apparently breaking record numbers for the gallery and we received a lot of positive feedback. Considering that i ran around for 2 weeks straight getting everything for it organised i should feel excited that it's over. and yet i feel the same. after all the havoc it caused me and my health i don't think i'm going to recover for quite some time. i'm not the same person anymore and i can already feel myself pushing people away even when all i want is have more people around.

it's a horrible feeling when you realise you've killed a part of yourself.

i wonder if i have back?

for the moment now i'm just working at my graphic design job and waiting for my holidays. i don't even really want to go up to darwin this year. yes it's different from wagga, but i'll still feel the same, only hotter and more self conscious of my legs in shorts.

i will keep taking photos, because that wasn't the part of my grad show that caused me grief.

be aware of your emotional limits. i wasn't.